Growing up, I felt like I was terribly unloved and that I was alone in this feeling. I think one of the most heartbreaking feelings is when you expect love from your parents and that love doesn’t arrive ( how the love is actually there but we can’t see it is a story for another time). The moment any stranger has showed care and love for me has completely broke my heart. It is indeed one of those feelings that cannot really be described with words. I would feel longing for the indifferent parent, love for them, disappointment and just plain pain at the realization that my love was not reciprocated. The idea that the heart can be broken must have come from this as well. You feel so lost, so wrong as a person, it burns your insides so bad that you just want to carve the feeling out of your body.
